Thursday, November 10, 2005
Haiz.. have some problems with friends.. learnt that people act saintly in front of you, be good friends with you only to speak bad of you behind your back.. i do get these results based on my own hard work.. why say i can't get it through my own hard work?I do fall asleep in classes... but that's not my intention.. i still can't cure my attention disorder.. what can I do? It's taxing on me too what..
I seriuosly do wanna concentrate.. but i can't and just start to nod off when i'm also struggling to concentrate.. I feel very guilty and afraid that i'll get scolded by teachers, caught in front of teh class to be sleeping right in her face.. I'm scared.. i try to sleep well.. but i can't..
it's not that i'm lazy and finding excuses for myself.. but i told my best friends when we started school this problem of mine straight off and asked them to wake me when they see me sleeping.. i really try to stay awake and attenttive in class.. but when my body fails me... what can i do??
I dun disagree that sometimes i can be quite proud and long-winded.. repeating and repeating myself.. true friends speak out to each other their faults.. maybe the person is not true friend.. mum and brothers they all say.. if you wanna say, say in front of the person.. haiz...
now i showing attitude to that person.. cause i kept thinking that person was an ok person.. not too bad... whenever my friends pointed out the person;s less desirable actions i will sort of defend that person.. say the person is ok.. now... the person is not ok.. but my friends also got snubbed in their faces by that person yet still treat him like normal.. so maybe i'm too sensitive..
but Cancerians take betrayal seriously.. they take it to heart for a long time and wun ever forget it... that's always a problem for me.. even when i have quarrels with my siblings, even if it's my fault, i wait for them to talk to me first.. although i like peace and arhmony all the time..
today lesson start at 1pm.. to 8.30pm.. we plan to take up the NYP Open house bazaar stall if possible.. to sell our accessories.. but now we have a contender.. haiz.. friendship in trouble again.. why do i keep having to be tested on the problem of friendship??
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