Been slacking at home.. haha.. if Adeline reads this will scold me... heehee.. But miss activities.. like it's so sian.. Did a little bit of earrings.. But don't have much of new ideas so like quite boring ... N customers want variety... so quite racking the brain and looking out in magazines and papers and library books..

Finally sent in my NYP application after being delayed for a week due to my medical report... But still under medication for the condition... Hmm... Just hope it'll clear up soon after the antibiotics and not come anymore... The medicine's so so so bitter lor... Like if you just suck it a wee wee bit after putting it in your mouth and you will wince...

Actually tuesday supposed to go gym with Adeline... N den she come and say she busy... Next say she can meet in the noon do some earrings... Den after some time say can't again... Feel like knocking her... Hahhaha... Always play me out...

Wednesday, Popo's Hong Kong fren, Xiu Leng Auntie visited with her parents as they were here in Singapore... Aunt Xiu Leng's 2 children are studying here in Singapore while her husband is sent to Japan by the office... That day, her son, i still dunno his exact name despite the family having been visiting Popo's every New Year for about 3 years, who's studying in SP, having hols, came as well.. So the adults chatted while we 2 played with the baby boy Auntie was looking after... He's quite cute and warmed to me pretty fast.. Abit noisy with his babbling... coz i dun understand anything of it!!! HAhhha...

After they left, Popo said that he was a good catch and asked ME to Woo Him!!! Coz like he'd be getting a Singapore diploma and going to JApan after that to further his studies!!!! So like he'd be multi-lingual and has credits in various countries and so would be a good catch!!!!!! HAhha... Urm... But there's nothing between us la.... AHhha... Just have a few words during New Year's that's all...

But even if he is dashing and all,, I wun be wooing him... I have to be wooed.... HAhhah... Ok... I know i'm not pretty... n i'm not being haughty or anything.... but I dun dare to go up just like that to tell a guy I like him or anything... So no matter how much I want to or whatever the circumstances, he'd have to approach me first... Hahhah... Ok... Just silly talk....

But i;m quite bored up with no one to talk to and having little proper thinks to do... Very long never go out and play liao... Like watch movies with someone or go cycle and stuff.... Coz all my frens busy... If they have hols, they also go take up a job.... I want to... But then, I can't stand long... Even 3 minutes is hard for me... Like i dunno why there'd be this weird sensation in my stomach and legs and like i'd feel real queasy... Sometimes it's better... Sometimes it's bad... N i really hate myself for that... But i just can't help myself... which is the irritating part... I dun want to come across as a weakling and a oh-i'm-always-weak-and-sick gal... But then, my body always seems to wanna go against me... I just wish something can come right out and let me fight it on.. Like maybe then after i win the battle den all will be fine and i'll live with a healthy body from then on... But it's impossible... N I pray I dun get teh worst.. I'm just lamenting only....

I fall alseep in classes... I'm so scared the same think will happen again.... I'm really scared.... I was nodding off again today in web-design class!!! In the morning!!!! Ok... Maybe i din have a good nite.... But i'm really afraid to be falling asleep in classes.. I try very hard not to... I do pinch myself to keep myself awake..... But it doesn't help... I'm quite at a loss.... Quite worried... It's very worried... It's very harmful to me coz I struggle but then I can't win it!!! ARHG!!!Hmmmmmmmmmm.............................................
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