Monday, February 21, 2005
I"VE BEEN DUMB AGAIN!!!I said I'd get over it... N look ahead for the right one to eventually come... But then, dunno why I was so dumb to court misery by SMSing him and then by so upset about it when he doesn't return anything.. Last year, he had at least he had returned a CNY greeting... but there's none this year... I know I'm being silly... But some things are just difficult to let go... N a friend has it worse than me.... She has heavy regrets to get to pining uncertainly...
I dunno... I just wish somehow... AT least there's a greeting from time to time... Just to know that he's getting on fine... I know I shun habour any more hopes... But then, what can I do?
I thought maybe go and take up another course to relieve my boredom... I wonder what'll happen when I'm in poly come June... HAving friends equals no friends... Coz like I missed the trainh last year when I crazily jumped onto the JC wagon thinking I could do it... Just overrated myself and ended with a psychiatic problem..... Now I dun even remember if i spelled psychiatic properly... I 'm just all so muddled and scared that things will not turn out the good way I hope it turns out...
Actually, I'm still confused... Wondering if I made the right decision... It's like there's this apprehension that things might not work out in the class and I do poorly and then make a failure of myself... It's just all so scary thinking so much... Yet at the same time, I can't stop thinking... There's just too much to think about and you never know whatever will happen next... I just wish my guardian angel would appear and enlighten me... I hope I dun fumble anything up anymore... I'm tired... Tired...............
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